I want to turn back time

What we had is better than nothing at all.

Insomnia

I've only had about three hours of sleep, probably less than that. I can't sleep. A childhood friend of mine, Tijan, is leaving for UK today. I wish you all the best and do take good care of yourself over there :)

Anyway, her departure got me thinking, hence the insomnia. In two years time, if I can't change my course somehow, I'll be off to Jordan.

I am not happy about it. I am not happy about any of this. The past three months, the next two years. I never signed up for this. And I don't like talking about it because all it makes me is miserable. All it makes me want to do is curse. So, I will refrain from making comments on why I am not happy about this whole course so as to not say the wrong things.

Why does it have to be so hard? I can never have it easy.

It has been months, no kidding

I am back (?). It has been a really long time since the last update. Turns out we did have WiFi at the serviced apartment we were staying in, but we weren't allowed to use it. Like, how awesome is that?

So, clearly I didn't exactly have the time of my life there. Hence, I'm not really psyched when I talk about it. It wasn't the worst thing, but I don't wish to elaborate on it.

What's worst is I've even lost my flow for writing. But hey, at least I'm updating this dusty old blog of mine :)))))

Will be writing more when I do have internet there, I hope!

Anis L